FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org What do you do when a guy says he loves you and you're not ready to say it back but it's not like you don't love him so it's
[Shinobu was away on the Alpha team mission, so she doesn't see this for a while, but boy does she come back to a doozy.]
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
Wow, he really doesn't fuck around, does he?
[But yeah, yeah, she actually works on something more constructive.]
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
If you're not ready to say it, though, doesn't that kind of answer your question? I mean, forcing yourself to say it would probably make things awkward, wouldn't it?
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
I dunno, maybe it's just me, but I'd rather have a person say that kind of thing when they felt comfortable saying it and not just doing it to try to appease me or something.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org Sorry to dump this on you but you're like one of 3 people that know
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org It's not like I don't feel that strongly! Just saying it aloud feels like it would jinx it. I'm not very good at holding onto things I like
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org I guess I'm a coward but it's hard to fight a pattern, y'know?
All right, let me be straight here. I can understand being nervous to say something like that, but come on. The forces of the universe isn't gonna take a crap on you for saying a word.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
Maybe you have bad luck, because I'm not exactly some Casanova myself, but it's not like preventing yourself from saying something is gonna stop whatever fate has in store for you.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org I guess so. Saying it aloud makes it real, though and fate can't take what you don't have.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org You're right, it's just been this way most of my life, so I picked up a lot of bad habits from it. It's just hard breaking them even though I've been trying to for him.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org Ugh wouldn't a normal girl be thrilled about this sort of thing? She'd squeal and start talking about wedding rings, I dunno.
[Don't get her wrong, she's happy. She's just jaded.]
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org The idea is novel and romantic but I don't see myself settling down with kids either
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org Thanks Shinobu. I've been worried he might think I've stopped liking him because I don't want to say "I love you." Sometimes he's really over the top.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org Like for V-day I gave him 5 rolls of incense because he can't eat chocolate, and I told him about White Day that has a rule of triple return. He gave me 60 candles. That's 12 times what I gave him!
[Ah let's not... mention he also gave Kaname her dead mother's watch.]
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org You know I'm not dumb enough to light them all at once. The scents would clash.
[What she doesn't know is that trackers learn how to breath fire...]
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org Yeah I won't say it until I'm comfortable. I've just never had anyone so interested that wasn't a complete sicko. I like it, and I don't want to lose it.
It's something weird like survival of the best genes or w/e. But I don't even know if we'd match up like that or not. I tried taking a peek once but you can't get a good look when you're being subtle.
I'm just going to assume from what you said before, that you're not talking about some threesome.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
But geez, fine. If you've gotta tell someone, I guess at least tell someone who isn't going to be dumb enough to accidentally let the rest of the crew know.
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What do you do when a guy says he loves you and you're not ready to say it back but it's not like you don't love him so it's
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
hard??
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FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
Wow, he really doesn't fuck around, does he?
[But yeah, yeah, she actually works on something more constructive.]
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
If you're not ready to say it, though, doesn't that kind of answer your question? I mean, forcing yourself to say it would probably make things awkward, wouldn't it?
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
I dunno, maybe it's just me, but I'd rather have a person say that kind of thing when they felt comfortable saying it and not just doing it to try to appease me or something.
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Sorry to dump this on you but you're like one of 3 people that know
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
It's not like I don't feel that strongly! Just saying it aloud feels like it would jinx it. I'm not very good at holding onto things I like
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
I guess I'm a coward but it's hard to fight a pattern, y'know?
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All right, let me be straight here. I can understand being nervous to say something like that, but come on. The forces of the universe isn't gonna take a crap on you for saying a word.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
Maybe you have bad luck, because I'm not exactly some Casanova myself, but it's not like preventing yourself from saying something is gonna stop whatever fate has in store for you.
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I guess so. Saying it aloud makes it real, though and fate can't take what you don't have.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
You're right, it's just been this way most of my life, so I picked up a lot of bad habits from it. It's just hard breaking them even though I've been trying to for him.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
Ugh wouldn't a normal girl be thrilled about this sort of thing? She'd squeal and start talking about wedding rings, I dunno.
[Don't get her wrong, she's happy. She's just jaded.]
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Hey now, that depends on the girl. The thought of getting married for me is really damned weird, personally.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
But you should really wait to say something as big as that until you feel comfortable enough for it. The guy can hold his damned horses until then.
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The idea is novel and romantic but I don't see myself settling down with kids either
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
Thanks Shinobu. I've been worried he might think I've stopped liking him because I don't want to say "I love you." Sometimes he's really over the top.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
Like for V-day I gave him 5 rolls of incense because he can't eat chocolate, and I told him about White Day that has a rule of triple return. He gave me 60 candles. That's 12 times what I gave him!
[Ah let's not... mention he also gave Kaname her dead mother's watch.]
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Unless you count kids I "adopted" for the sole purpose of terrifying them counts, I don't plan on having any of my own either.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
Damn. I guess if a rover suddenly bursts into flames some night, I know it's yours.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
You shouldn't feel pressured to do something you're not ready for, though, even if he lavishes you with attention.
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You know I'm not dumb enough to light them all at once. The scents would clash.
[What she doesn't know is that trackers learn how to breath fire...]
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
Yeah I won't say it until I'm comfortable. I've just never had anyone so interested that wasn't a complete sicko. I like it, and I don't want to lose it.
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Let's just hope your rovermates don't go nuts with the candles then.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
As long as you're not doing something like punching him in the face, I think you'll be fine.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
I mean, I don't fully understand how the whole courtship thing works for his species, but that seems like a constant across everyone.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
Or most people, anyway.
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His species fight before they have sex so it'd probably come across as a pick up line.
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Oh. Well, there you go, then. Slap him hard across the fact when you're really into him, I guess.
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IT'S A FIGHT TO THE DEATH I CAN'T SURVIVE THAT.
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That's the most counter-productive way I've ever heard of to do it.
In that case, maybe don't do that. Not unless you're into the whole fighting to the death thing.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
Don't worry, I won't no-bro you.
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It's something weird like survival of the best genes or w/e. But I don't even know if we'd match up like that or not. I tried taking a peek once but you can't get a good look when you're being subtle.
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I guess that much kind of makes sense, at least.
...but yeah, I guess that's another thing to consider. And for the record? If you do get a better look, I don't wanna know.
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If you tell me I have to go to Noh-Varr for that kind of gossip I might cry.
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From what I know, I'm pretty sure he's going to be far more of an expert on that kind of thing than I ever will.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
He'd probably be able to give you way better advice concerning those kinds of matters too.
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No thank you. If Noh-Varr and I have an encounter involving any form of "dick" ever again it will be too soon.
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I'm just going to assume from what you said before, that you're not talking about some threesome.
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
But geez, fine. If you've gotta tell someone, I guess at least tell someone who isn't going to be dumb enough to accidentally let the rest of the crew know.
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I drew a dick on his face with glowing fruit juice and he made it weird.
FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
I might just keep it to myself. Most people are blabbermouths. :(
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The kind of weird that I need to deal with him personally?
FROM: jacobs.shinobu@cdc.org
Better safe than sorry. Plus? You know probably at least half of the instructors read everything we say on these things, right?
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FROM: chidori.kaname@cdc.org
Nope! We're good!
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If you say so.
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So how've you been?
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